Scared, worried, hopeful, faithful, positive and unsure. Only the first few emotions that entered my mind.
NEXT: Will I be able to keep a roof over my head? How do I tell my 8 year old step son Mommy no longer is a wage earner? Should we still go see Madagascar 2 at the Imax theater next weekend? Do I tell my Mom or is she already too stressed out with my sisters chemo and my brothers unemployement? Can I still help my Mom with her groceries? How long with the money I have last? What if I get sick? Is the car payment up to date? When was the last time I visited the dentist? How soon will I have to go to the grocery store or gas station?
9:01 am yesterday was when the phone rang and I was E-MAILED my furlough letter. By 10:am my unemployement benefits were applied for, resume updated and forward to any and everyone who would look.
Where does one go next? How does one begin the next day or even sleep that night? Lord knows I understand there are much more serious things that could be happening but NOW, WITH NO NOTICE? NO SEVERANCE? OUCH!
Back to school? Recruiting is definately not a field tht needs me right now? Nursing? I love people, why not? Mom was a nurse at a nursing home before she was ill. WIll I cut it? Am I smart enough to go back to school. 40 is only months away. or should I believe the fine words of George Elliot -
NEXT: Will I be able to keep a roof over my head? How do I tell my 8 year old step son Mommy no longer is a wage earner? Should we still go see Madagascar 2 at the Imax theater next weekend? Do I tell my Mom or is she already too stressed out with my sisters chemo and my brothers unemployement? Can I still help my Mom with her groceries? How long with the money I have last? What if I get sick? Is the car payment up to date? When was the last time I visited the dentist? How soon will I have to go to the grocery store or gas station?
9:01 am yesterday was when the phone rang and I was E-MAILED my furlough letter. By 10:am my unemployement benefits were applied for, resume updated and forward to any and everyone who would look.
Where does one go next? How does one begin the next day or even sleep that night? Lord knows I understand there are much more serious things that could be happening but NOW, WITH NO NOTICE? NO SEVERANCE? OUCH!
Back to school? Recruiting is definately not a field tht needs me right now? Nursing? I love people, why not? Mom was a nurse at a nursing home before she was ill. WIll I cut it? Am I smart enough to go back to school. 40 is only months away. or should I believe the fine words of George Elliot -
Its never too late to be the person you might have been...
3 comments:
Yes - you are smart enough and strong enough to do whatever you chose to do.
Lots of hugs and positive thoughts!!!!
Oh yes, you are smart enough and strong enough to do ANYTHING. And strong enough too. I've been looking at elder care--we had grandma with us for 3 years before her death earlier this year. Here unskilled elder companions start at $10 an hour, which is a lot better than minimum wage when you're just looking for a part-time job. If you're looking for a stop-gap, you might try craiglist for your area and see about just being a companion for a few hours a week. It's at least groceries.
But I know you won't have to wait long for a job--you're Awesome!
Jen
Luly, I know you will find something really soon! I'm sorry you lost your job :( HUGS!
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